I am so angry right now about all this. Do not know what to think.

I personally think it was a mistake to go back. 10 years ago I have made the smartest choice of my life, go away as far as possible from my family. I did put an ocean between us. Then I got old and nostalgic.

None of us has changed. NOt a BIt!

Time to go! Final decision and no return, hopefully no regrets! I’ve had enough. It is not natural to live with your old folks anyway. I have given myself enough time to relax from my last crisis. This is a decision from a clear mind.

To admit the truth, I need fresh air. So 6 months renting then I will try to buy a condo or a studio near where I work.

One day we’ll be old by Asaf Avidan

RaDiO Radio!

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This one is playing all day long on my radio:

Madness by Muse

And a nice one on the way to looking for new tunes on Youtube:

Hall of fame by The script/Will.I.am

4 DaYs OFf!

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It feels good to stay home and spend all my time geeking. That is all I ask for when I have vacation! Geek attitude :)!

NiCe SongS!

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Tightrope by Janelle Monae: quite refreshing and elegant! I wish I could dance like them!

We are young by Fun and Monae: Sounds different than the common shit on the radio.

I was wondering why I am in perpetual conflict with my parents. It is because they are in perpetual conflict with themselves.

Their continuous bickering and fighting that goes up in a crescendo every 3 weeks is very stressful on my nerves. For them, it is normal, their mind and body have adapted to this continuous stress they imposed upon themselves and it seems to everyone that they need it for their mental balance.

To me, it is a mental nerve break. They do not understand why I am so angry against them when they interact with me. It is my subconscious that just react to the fact that I am tired mentally.

Every time, I have my sister on the phone, I just asked her: Why cant they just be happy? It might be too late for them to change and the only solution for me is to leave if I want to have this silence. I do not want to take any quick decision, I might regret later, since, in few months, I will be able to get a loan with my brother to buy a house. With or without him, I will buy something: a small F1 (2-rooms) if I am on my own.

I do not want to sign a contract that will bind me to my parents knowing in advance I will endure this perpetual fight. As a couple for them, it is normal, but for me it seems unfair that I have to be part of that too.

Maybe a house that has separate areas that would allow us not to interact everyday and submit others to our own stress.

Time flies!

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So quickly. Sadly I did not change.

LiFe GoEs on!

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Nothing to mention really. I am a bit busy at work since I manage the transition to a new system but things are just going along without no much drama but the ones I have in my own head.

Mist of Pandaria, the World of Warcraft latest update is out and I am also busy with finishing my first level 90. It takes some time and I am a bit tired at home to stay up late to finish my priest.

I am driving a bit better now and I think I got over this fear. It remains a bit scary though. I have driven more than 7000 km now after 3 months.

We’ve lost internet connection last week and a technician is going to check the material at our place today. I think it is a waste of time. Anyways my brother and myself are on 3G connection during this time so it is not too bad.

in 2 WeeKs time!

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And it will be 3 months. So far so Good!

The economy is still gloomy but who cares now? Not I! My next goal is to get 12-month regular paycheck and use this permanent contract to buy a house. Yea Yea Yea!

I needed a goal in my life…there it is!

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